Saturday, February 23, 2013

Valentine's Day

So I guess I better post about Valentine's day before February is over right. This year I was dreading Valentine's ANTI V-DAY! Both of my roommates had "significant others" I don't know if they officially call them boyfriends but yeah it makes it worse for me because its a big ole slap in the face to me because they all seem to amp it up on the "oh Taylor I am so sorry that you are alone"..."It must really suck to miss Grant"...."Is it hard to see all those couples out on Valentine's Day"...."Do you think you will get anything?"...."Is it awful to have a boyfriend and not see or hear from him?".....the list honestly goes on and on and on. I understand people are curious because lets face it for most people Grant and I's situation isn't necessarily common. I just don't like the constant reminders. So I was happy to know that on Valentine's Day I would spend the entire day with my patients at Asthma and Allergy. At lunch Karrie, my roommate, text me a picture of the package that Grant sent me. I wasn't expecting one at all so when I got my lunch which was at 2:00 in the afternoon I ran to my apartment to open it. I got two pairs of socks, I hate when me feet are cold, new lotion from Bath and Body Works I have an obsession, and reeses hearts. I did get the annual silly valentine card that I have posted about before. It's funny how used to one another you get when its your 3rd Valentine's Day together. I miss that kid so much and I appreciate that he sent me a package because I know that missionaries don't get a lot of money and I hate when he spends a lot of money on me anyway. I miss that kid like CRAZY and I love him more than anything. Oh and the best part of this Valentines was that next year Grant and I will be together again. That's all I have to say about Valentine's day I do have pictures but not anywhere that I can put them on here.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013


So you could say I'm not your typical college student because I wake up at 6:30 every morning. I get up and do my hair and make up which only takes a half hour and yes I'm for real it doesn't take me long at all. After that I make my breakfast which is almost always instant oat meal then I come in my room and eat and just chill. After that I usually read my scriptures and then when I am all done with that I go and watch the news (which my roommates laugh at but hey at least I know what's up). And then I start my car because I hate having a cold car. And I finish watching the news and pack my backpack for school. See what I mean not so typical. I cannot sleep in, usually at 5:30 I am wide awake and waiting for my alarm to go off so I can get up. The only downer is my roommate keeps the apartment so cold so once I open my door the cold front comes in. 

Monday, February 11, 2013

Monday CRAP

So you know how I had that awesome grateful post and it was really fun to read, well this one is going to be the exact opposite....don't say I didn't warn you. So on Saturday I was just messing everything up. I spilled a lot of stuff, when I opened the fridge the magnet board flew off (that  never happens), I bought a curtain rod for the living room....that was too small, I went tanning and I didn't feel hot but apparently I got FRIED by bottom and chest and legs and stomach HURT, I came home and my roommate wanted to make food for her boyfriend we went to wal-mart and in the check out line she told me she didn't bring her wallet, while I made the butterfinger blondies for her boyfriend I splattered it all over the wall, when I went to make the frosting for it I realized we didn't buy shortening so I used sour cream as a substitute, it wasn't quite as good, I called it a night after that. Sunday we went late to church and I had to do laundry and the machine was retarded and stole 1.25 from me, I realize I had homework at midnight, Monday well it was Monday and I did get to email Grant for like 2 seconds, my Dad called and told me that I had to spend $500 to get new tires on my car, I was talking to my roommate and realized that as of May I have no where to live and I don't know if I can afford to live alone, I am stressing so much about money and what I am going to do with my life. I am graduating from college and I am hopefully getting a job offer, but then I think what if that doesn't happen. I am a worrier and that is probably never going to change but this week I have just been stressed to the max. I do love my life and where I am in it but sometimes I just have a bad day and I want to punch someone and then I remember that I'm in healthcare and I would be obligated to path them up afterwards. UGH stress sucks. Okay I am grateful for my life but some days life just doesn't go my way 

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Good Things

I can honestly say that I am happier now than I have been in such a long time. Lately I have been working SUPER hard at reading my scriptures morning and night. On Monday nights I print off a talk off of because I can't go to FHE. When I have a bad day I go and just sit outside the temple and think and it helps me clear my head. Practicum has been going great and I am really getting the hang of things. I love learning new things and believe me there is plenty to learn at an asthma and allergy clinic. I love working with all the people they all have a story to tell and there are usually quite a few laughs during the day. The people that I work with are so awesome and patient with me I really couldn't ask for better people to spend 18 hours a week with. School oh school, it has actually been going really well. I wont lie it is A LOT of work and I spend many hours working on homework but I love that I am learning about medical things not math and biology, not that it wasn't beneficial to learn, I just love that all 15 of my credits are directly related to my program and the medical field. My roommates are so great and supportive. We are all really busy but somehow we all make time to spend with one another, and make home cooked meals I LOVE that about our apartment {even though we do have pizza once a week}.My family is so awesome. My parents have been so supportive of me this semester. My little brothers and sisters are really my best friends and they always have my back. My friends even though we are far apart and we don't get to see one another a whole lot its so nice to know that when we do get together everything goes right back to how it was before. Grant, well  he is amazing lets just be honest. I love that kid SO much. He is such a blessing in my life and I don't know what I would do without him. I got a letter from him today and I can 110% say no doubt in my mind I am more in love with him today than I was the day he left and even more than I was yesterday. I cannot wait to be with that boy forever. I guess this entire post was just one big grateful post. I am loving life and I am so grateful for all the blessings in it these are just to name a few really I am so lucky. 

Friday, February 1, 2013

the randoms that you dont know about yours truly

1) I have to make my bed before I can sleep in it.
2) I have to sleep with socks on, or at least start out with socks on.
3) If I didn't have a list of what I needed to do one day I would go crazy
4) One day I want to be a volleyball coach
5) I will not marry a man who doesn't want to be a farmer, deal breaker
6) I get a stuffed animal every year for Christmas never fail
7) I hate people touching my feet but I love foot massages, there is a difference
8) When I get Mexican I only get chicken, I'm picky about beef
9) I love changing my hair but I always chicken out
10) I hate doing dishes, use paper products
11) I have never given a talk in sacrament meeting
12) I have read the entire Book of Mormon and Doctrine and Covenants
13) I rarely straighten my hair, it takes too long, just curl it
14) I wake up 2 hours before school every morning, I refuse to not have my hair done and dressed nicely for class (and my teacher requires it).
15) I fall asleep in almost every movie I have gone to at a movie theatre
16) I'm obsessed with McDonald's hot chocolate yumm
17) I could honestly spend all day in a tractor and not get bored, must be why Grant loves me
18 I know A LOT about cattle, I can read EPD's, and my dad gets my opinion when we buy a bull, I love bull sales, calving season, judging 4-H steers, you name it.
19) When I am sick I am a "mean person" and I know it, I just don't care that much, i'm also really emotional, one time I cried when we didn't have saltines for my soup.
20) My little brothers and sisters are probably some of my closest friends

18 months DOWN

Hard to believe right....Grant has been gone for 18 months and he will be home in 6 months! Sometimes I am seriously like WOW where did the time go and other times it still feels like he is never coming home. A year and a half, yeah that makes it seem like he has been gone for such a long time. I can remember when I felt like time was never going to move, this time last year I was celebrating that he had been gone for 6 months and I though that was crazy progress, and here I am one year later and time has finally gone fast. I think the whole reason it seems so long is because the first 6 months is a real transition period. In my case Grant left in the summer time which is awful, I had way too much free time when he left. I started my senior year of high school a month after he left and that was a difficult transition. I felt like he was missing out on so much of my life, but in reality I just had to get used to the fact that he wasn't here. Last February I can honestly say that I was finally used to him being gone. I was okay that he wasn't here. I was okay with allowing myself to grow as a person and try new things and that is when time really started to fly by for me. Since Grant left I have completed my senior year of high school. Completed the EMT program. Taken summer classes, and moved to Twin in the fall to go to college at CSI. I was accepted into the medial assistant program and I have completed my first semester and working on my second. I have read the Book of Mormon and Doctrine and Covenants. I have grown SO MUCH and learned SO MUCH. It is amazing to see the progress that we have both made and the challenges we have overcome. Grant has had 2 heart surgeries, I was diagnosed with WPW, overcome trials in our own families. He has grown as a missionary and into a man. He is much more mature, he is more patient, kind, and loving. He has a strong testimony and a real passion for teaching the gospel to others. All in all I am so grateful for this experience. I am grateful that I have been able to embark on this journey with him and now that we are reaching the finish line I am really seeing the blessings that it has brought to us. The next 6 months will definitely not be easy, but what in life is. I am fully prepared to live it up these next 6 months. I am so excited to see him and get to start our relationship up again in full swing. I love Grant so much.