Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Trials and Blessings

So I have really been dreading writing this post, more than any of you will ever know. It seems like the ENTIRE time Grant has been on his mission the lord has been testing us and our relationship. We have overcome so many trials and milestones in life in the last 14 months that most couples couldn't even imagine. But that is how our relationship has always been. Apparently the Lord thinks we need a little more testing because well here's the story.......

Saturday I was at the speedway with the singles branch in Salt Lake and I got a facebook from Grant (i know naughty missionary but I love that we can chat). We just chatted for a bit and then he told me well dear I have a hernia and on Monday I am going into the Dr. to get it checked out. I freaked a little but "oh its just a hernia" was a thought. I am in the medical field so I know a little bit about those. Well Monday comes around and I get an email that explains to me that the hernia has been left too long and it is large enough that he has to have surgery again. Don't forget that this is his 2nd surgery on the mission and his 2nd surgery in 4 months. I was so stressed and frustrated and scared and I broke down in class and cried. That is very unlikely usually I am good at not showing emotion. Not yesterday. It was a little embarrassing. So now you all know. The plan is that he will not come home.....for now. He and the mission president and the dr. need to make a plan and he wants some time to pray and think over things. 

I know that only through trials come blessings, and even though that this is a hard thing to deal with and can seem like and endless trial, I know that one day we will both be blessed in more ways than we can even imagine. It's hard for him to deal with these trials, and it is hard for me to sit here and watch him, helplessly and know that there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it. I can't hug him, I can't talk to him and tell him that it will be okay. It really is a helpless feeling when the person that you love is in so much pain and there is nothing that you can do for them. I am so grateful for our loving Heavenly Father who is there for us through all of our trials and I know that the Lord will never put you through anything that you are not capable of overcoming. It's not going to be easy but there is no doubt in my mind that it will all be worth it one day.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

a mix of things and such

So blogging and I have an on and off relationship, sometimes I blog like 5 times a day and then sometimes I go a whole month with....maybe one blog post. I will try and do better but it is oh so hard to blog when you are a boring college student, with 15 credits, in a technical program, so I could blog about homework but I really choose not to do that to anyone who might read this and me in the future. My college experience so far has been really boring, I really don't get far from campus because I have so much homework, and everything is close to campus that I need to go to. Oh I finally went grocery shopping yesterday, I was down to oatmeal, granola bars, and cup of noodle soup, typical college student. I STILL have not gotten a letter from Grant since I moved to Twin but I hear it's on its way, so cross your fingers it comes soon because heaven knows I need it. Huh update on the missionary, well he is the zone leader (he's been out for 13 months and i'm still not sure exactly what that entails), he is loving his new companion because he loves to get out and work as much as Grant does, he is in Sagus CA, I still don't know much about the area but when I get a chance of course I will research it a little bit, he is getting very very very "into" his mission. I can really tell lately a spiritual growth that he has had. When they first leave for the first few months they seem very much the same but slowly you can start to see a big change in them. With all that has happened in Grant's life lately I am glad that he has grown from all of his trials. He truly is one of the strongest people I know and he just continues to amaze me everyday. Our relationship on the mission has grown so much and it really is on a different level, that is not to say that we haven't had any bumps along the way, believe me we have. Sometimes he frustrates me with things I read in a letter or email, mostly because you don't know the tone of voice, and the same happens with somethings that I say. His wrist surgery was a very difficult time for our relationship, he was unable to write and had a difficult time typing emails, this was from May until around mid-August so the entire summer I felt like we were very disconnected. Now that his wrist is healed things are starting to pick back up and things are falling into place as they were before. 

Love Was Easy

Love, love, love, Jason Aldean so this is my current obsession!

It seems like money, 
Is always on our minds these days,
Make more spend more, 
Worry how the bills will get paid,
Oh it wasn't that long ago, 
But it seems so far away,
When we didn't have a damn thing,
But we were happy,

And love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,

Can you tell me,
The last time we really laughed,
The last time we had a moment,
When we hated that the moment passed,
Here we are down the road,
Standing here looking back,
Seeing what we used to have,
Is what we're missing,

When love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,

Maybe that's how it is,
Ah maybe that's how it goes,
But all I know,

Is love was easy,
Just laying on a river bank all night counting the stars,
Love was easy,
As that feeling we found in the back seat of my car,
Even in the dark,
Love was easy,
When we didn't make it so hard,
When we didn't make it so hard,
Love was easy baby yeah,
When we didn't make it so hard

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Diggin' Spuds

You know you live in Idaho if you get excited for spud harvest! On Saturday I was in Declo for my little brothers football game and I was going to head back to Twin after that but then my friend Brad called and invited me to come and ride in the potato digger with him, of course I accepted I love tractors and I hadn't seen Brad in quite a while. I spent almost 5 hours digging potatoes with him and it was so fun! Unlike a lot of people sitting in a tractor for hours does not bother me one bit, I actually enjoy it. Tractor conversations are the best and I love farming so it is fun to do. After that we went and rode a tricycle and a little dirtbike down Pomerelle it was scary I freaked out, we were going like 30 mph on this little tricycle (that had no brakes). Then we climbed up to the cell phone towers and looked out over Malta, Burley, Rupert, Declo, Paul, and all that area it was so cool, but soo high I am afraid of heights so yeah. Then we went back to Brad's and just chilled in the hot tub it was a fun night and definitely needed after the week I had in Twin! 

September Random Ramble....

College I don't have much to say about it other than I don't really care for it all that much. Why you ask?

1. I grew up in a tiny tiny tiny town so even Twin Falls, Idaho is big city for me....I miss the quiet.
2. Homework consumes my life I literally took no "fun" classes....medical assistant classes, math, and biology, 15 credits of that and 0 fun random classes.
3. I don't cook. Period. 
4. It gets old living with a ton of people you barely know. 
5. Whenever I have to pee, no matter what time it is, someone is in the shower.....
6. I can NEVER EVER NO MATTER WHAT remember where I parked my car. 
7. I can't run :( I don't feel safe running on the road and our apartment treadmill is broken, go figure.
8. All night hot tub parties outside my apartment with lots of drunk people. 

Well I know I will get used to it but it is a huge culture shock for a little 18 year old girl from Malta, Idaho, and on the plus side I graduate in May so ha then I will be back to my small town area and working, much more my pace if you ask me.